Past history… We are both in our forties. We are both divorced. (Which means baggage) The children are out of the house. (more baggage). We met online at craigslist. Fell into love and I moved into his house. I had a job then. Im a nurse. I am currently unemployed. He was an unemployed electrician. He got a job two weeks after I moved out. Im from Oregon, He is from Maine. We live in Maine..

We had a disagreement. I was very upset regarding (baggage) with my daughters. I was devestated and he agreed I had a right to be devastated. I shut down emotionally for one week and wasnt able to have sex with him. He stated he wanted to be there for me but then he said after one week that he wanted to postpone the wedding. I asked him how you can postpone a life you are already living? Then I told him that if that is how he felt I would have to move out. He then commenced to move me out the next morning. He woke me up and told me that I had til nighttime to get out. With the help of his daughter he moved my things into a storage unit and I went to a hotel. I had quit my job because we were going to move to Oregon. I sold my ring and used the money to move to Oregon. I put as much stuff as I could in my car and drove 3000 miles. We talked before I left and agreed to stay true to each other. We both wanted to try to repair our relationship. He went to see our marriage counselor that we had both been seeing for premarital counseling. This pastor preached the gospels to him and he was saved. We both decided that living together before marriage was a sin so I left for oregon. I stayed with my son. I reinstated my Oregon nursing license. While I was waiting the five weeks he bought me a plane ticket to come back to Maine. We were both very lonely and decided we couldn’t work on our relationship being apart from each other. We had talked and agreed to try things again. He and I both swore love for each other. He said that he didn’t want anyone else.

So here I am back in Maine. Looking for a job and after huge trust issues in this relationship. I find that he was looking at craigslist ads for women seeking men. He told me that he had been true.

I am pretty intelligent, I am also forgiving. But I dont know what to do. There are so many OTHER issues. faith trust honesty security.

Why was he looking at other women online????? I dont want to ask him this question. Should I cut my losses now and run as fast as my mind tells me to or do I believe his excuse and give the guy a chance like my heart tells me to do? I know we were apart but we had promised to be true. He still wants to put off the marriage but we now have the added issue of sex before marriage with his new religion. Its like he wants everything but he goes after nothing. I am baffled.